Letter #16

Dearest...
Another 3rd today! I miss you a lot. I just want to run and come to you and say that i love you and that you are the only one whom i have always loved. But alas! I can't do that. And this is what pains me a lot. It is too hurting to recall all our conversations over the phone on this issue. I really want to be back with you. Please don't punish me anymore. I need you. Each passing moment makes me realize my mistake. I'm deeply sorry. I really really love you and miss you a lot. Please please come back. I'm waiting for you..
Yours...

Letter #14

Dearest...

I'm feeling very happy after talking to you a couple of minutes back. It is after a long time that i could sense you in your original self. You were like this till a few months back until things got bad between us. You talked about keeping Akhil awake till late night to watch the football match with you. Till a few months back, i would tease you over your liking for football and the timing of broadcast of matches and say that i would make you sleep early in future and then the teasing would begin! Now, i do not have any right to do that! I wanted to say too many things that time on the phone but couldn't. I feel too lost without you. Life is moving ahead, but i'm not! I'm still waiting for you. I really really wish to be back with you..

Yours...

Letter #13

Dearest...
I don't know when are you going to read this letter, if ever! Creating such a blog and writing letters to each other daily was my idea and i only forced you for the same. Initially, we were regular with this but that proved to be short lived at both the ends. Our busy schedules and engagements took over. I had never thought that one day i would come back to it (almost exactly after an year!) on this blog to write a letter to you when i do not even know whether you would be reading it! That is because today, i do not have you and this is the only place where i feel that i am sharing my heart and mind with you, ironically though, without having you. It has been a day full of ironies. I broke up with you at midnight and today it was raining cats and dogs in the afternoon just like it did on 21st July, 2009. I broke up with you today and today only,  one of the prime reasons of the breakup, confessed that he sometimes has a guilt feeling that what he did to you was wrong! Inspite of knowing that you wouldn't be calling or messaging, i hoped to see your name flash on my mobile screen with every ring. You always loved to see me in suits and today, with all other clothes being wet and not having dried up due to rains, i was left only with a suit to wear once i got back to my room! For the first time, each moment of the day with your thoughts has been difficult to live because i do not have you now and i know i am responsible for it and this is probably the best punishment; i have too much to say about what has been going on inside me but i have no one to share with, not even you! I was really wondering over the fact that the last time that we came back to each other after a severe fight, you had said that you would never let us get separated. But last night, i did not find that anywhere in the conversation. Holding some hope, i called you in the morning to clarify, but it was still the same! Why?? If you found my reasons valid and was waiting for my decision, why could you not suggest any other solution besides this? You said you wanted to hear my decision. It pinched me to know that you had the same thoughts but you kept quiet. Why?? Good bye! Take care!
Yours...